about movies
there's a pinned note in my apple notes called "subjective list of bullshits."
i add things there that are generally considered axiomatic truths but don't work for me.
for a long time, i thought something was wrong with me as i felt differently about them. but one day (just kidding, it took 5 years of therapy) i finally accepted the fact that they just don't suit me.
the first thing in that list is:
watching a movie is a relaxing time
it’s quite conventional to see friends going to the cinema for a great time or enjoying a cozy solo evening with a movie and a drink at home.
for me, though, each movie is packed with information: characters, their stories, conversations, plots, and hidden meanings.
i tend to be emotionally involved in what i see — one of my strongest qualities and, thereafter, the weakest. with my background in gestalt, i analyze people's behavior, form hypotheses, and generate the questions for the further (theoretical) research.
as you might guess, i feel quite overwhelmed afterwards.
when small talk turns to movies, i often find myself needing to explain why i won’t go or why i'm not watching someone's "life-changing movie" that evening. it can be tricky sometimes as i prefer not to share too many personal details.
i hope i'm not alone in this. i also hope it might ease the pressure for anyone feeling the same.
and since the title of this post might suggest that i was about to share a personal top of the movies -- "anatomy of a fall" was pretty great; also, i hate "la la land".
your identity isn't just about what suits you; what doesn't suit you is equally important.